Adulting?

I hate feeling.  Well I hate feeling strongly about things, and unfortunately for me, I'm a very passionate person.
I currently live at home with my parents.  As a young adult it is tough to try and find a place in this world when 1.) Your parents want to know your "plan", 2.) You feel as if you are still in high school, though that was several years ago, and 3.) society makes growing up so easy.
I hate actors for that.  They get to look the part without actually having to have any of the actual experiences WHILE being paid lots of moneys.  But not everyone was born to act.  I mean, I can be dramatic at times, but I don't think that's what directors are looking for.
ANYWAY.  I know it's important to have a plan.  I want to have a plan and to be honest, I really NEED to have one.  I'm the kind of perfectionist that needs to have control over every little detail.  And since I'm not God, I don't have control over everything.  Or even most things.  (I mean if I did, do you think I'd be living at home still?  Highly unlikely.)
Don't get me wrong, I love my folks, but I'm just not going to feel very fulfilled or successful until I can come home from my job and go into my own apartment with my fish and own thoughts.  Plus my house is not helping with my depression.  Stupid.
I'm so sorry my post is all over the place.  Heh, I used to think I was good at writing, not I feel like I'm more pro at ranting than writing.  I don't know where I want to go, I just know I don't want to be where I am.  And I know one of my favorite sayings is "If you don't like something about your life, change it. You're not a tree." but at the moment I feel rooted down (tree pun.... not that funny, I get it.).
They say these are the best years of our life.  Oh goodness, I hope that's not true.  Because if it is, just end it now.  All the stress and decisions.... psh....  Then again, getting started on something is usually the hardest part.  I guess you could argue that we young adults are just barely getting started on life.  I guess that would make sense why it's so hard.  Hmm... breakthrough.  However, that doesn't mean that I'm not going to want to watch old school Nickelodeon with a bag of gummy bears pretending I'm 7yrs. again.  I guess growing up doesn't mean losing the little joys in life.  It just means that now you have to buy your own gummy bears.